p.s After i got off the phone with S.Rose i was left feeling more empty then i was when i arrived back at school. I sincerely missed everyone even more after spending the whole weekend with them and doing our usual things. It was the second time i came to tears because of it. I just thought about how she felt so lonely and i couldn't actually do anything to help, and i looked up at the pictures of all of us that are posted above my bed, and it just makes me sad that i don't get to see them as much as i would like or am use to. The first time i cried because of this was after a weekend at home, that i spent with mama. We had so much fun together, and really got along and i came back and missed her. That night i had dream she died, and i woke up crying, and could not stop for the life of me. There's something about my mom, that everytime i hug her i just feel like crying. It's weird that i end up feeling more alone, after being fulfilled with the company of my family and friends, rather than being away from them for a week or two at a time.  I have it great, i really do. And i feel like it has to be written down that i feel so blessed to have all of those people in my life.

-Stephanie-