Fordham University. New york, NY. 2:49am.

Dan won't tell me how to get on the roof and i want to find out so i can go!

Michael jackson really ruined his life by being so creepy, but i feel bad for him because he was mentally fucked up as a child.

I want to get like 40 dresses i see on topshop.com.

I just saw a commercial on optimism, what has this world come to?

"zac efron is a dreamboat"- Vicki James

I feel like a creep for just quoting her hahahhahaha.

How to Be- watch it! Robert Patterson is in it and it looks really good besides that fact.

i just went to the wrong address online, instead of my fordham email i went to my aol account..weird.

I realize that i listen to the screams of others, to let out the screaming that is going on in my own head.

Fordham University. New York, New York. 1:23am

so let's see if i remember any of the rest of my spring break ahhhhh! my brain is losing it.

Monday- Woke up, Visited Steph at Work, facebook stalked with her while the crazy asian children ran around the house with tied up dogs, and hair eating cats, after we talked about Good Times (GT), i went to Gabby's house to eat Fijitas, then went to the mall with Gabs, Bo and Steph, bought a shirt, a hat and a bag at forever 21 for $30. Went back to Gabby's house, watched the beginning of Will Farell's You're Welcome America special, smoked and then went home.

Tuesday- Woke up, went to Bagel Barn with Gabs, Showered. Went Job hunting with Gabs at a few Country Clubs around where we live. It was sucha beautiful day out, like amazing for a drive around the Princeton and Hopewell sections of New Jersey. It was about 60 degrees out but with it being the first wave of warmth, we rolled down the windows and didn't wear jackets. Both places we applied to seemed to love us, so we'll see. We then Went to Gabby's. Met up with Bo and Taylor, died some Beer's Green for St. Patty's day, ate some corn beef and cabbage, watched the second half of the Willy F special. Smoked, hung out with people, talked in a circle, went to Hogie Haven.

Wed- woke up, Jenny and Georgi came over, Bo and Gabs then came over and we spontaneously decided to go to Monmouth just to chill. We left at about 3:00 and showed up at around 6:00pm. Eric gave us a tour of the campus with Garcia. It's a really pretty campus, right near the ocean, with great arcitecture, it really is very pretty. We met up with people we know that go there, smoked, went to Surf Taco, then got ice cream on the Long Branch Pier, it was like a baby vacation. We even left around 10:00pm and took a relaxed ride home. We ended up going home early that night.

Thursday- Woke up extremely early to go to Sophi's. Ended up taking a long drive by myself, but it was all good, because i finally did something independent and i was completely alone and did not mess up. I even made my appointment time at 10:30am, (got there a few min late but we'll pretend that didn't happen). Got my hair cut by myself, paid, then went down the street before i took off on the highway. Got gas, was so stressed out in the morning so i got a pack of Cigarettes at the small grocery store near my old house, and got a pack of cigs and a cup of coffee. It was really bizarre though because not only were my grandparents down the street and i didn't see them or try to stop by, but because this was the place where i use to buy ice cream cones in the summer with my grandmother. Hahah. Oh i want to write about my childhood now but i'll leave it for another time. I got home around 12:00, and felt so accomplished and proud that i did something on my own, successfully. I then waited for Gabs and Steph to be ready so we could pack up and go to Cabrini College. We got there around 7:30, after getting 30min out of the way lost, having to stop bc Steph had to pee really badly, and then getting a warning sign from my car that said: STOP YOU MUST PULL OVER NOW! like what the fuck am i suppose to do in a situation like this? Either listen to the car or blow up in the car. We decided that it would be a good idea to keep driving though. We were like 10min away from Cabrini and I figured Mikey would look at my car and check the oil to see if it was alright. hahaha wow we were so dumb in that situation. It ended up just needing oil so we went to Wawa got mixed drinks, food, and oil. Went back to campus, ate dinner. Then began the festivities. Got a waterfall, walked around alittle silly. I was so responsible though because i waited until i came down to start drinking, and it balanced out my night perfectly. So we got really shitty, and just had to much fun. I'll explain it more later, but it was all over the place, and fun, and in one of the part we even snuck through a bed room window to get into the boy's dorms! haha. last thing i remember is taking a waterfall, and sleeeepp.

Friday- Woke up, hung out, blah blah blah. Rolled a blizzy, drove home, had good tunes, good times. Went home. slept, showered, got ready for Adam Claybrooks house...

to be continued. i can't do this right now.

Home. Montgomery. 8:45pm

Spring break has already started and it's so good to be home....quick followup

Friday--left fordham at like 8:00 with Vicky. Smoked before we got on the train, made for a great ride. Came home. Slept for like 4 hrs. Woke up had Tokyo Sushi, Showered, then went to Eddy's smoked what i brought with Taylor, Gwen, Eddy, Steph and Gabs. Went home to shower and eat pizza. Went back to Eddy's, for Fast Eddy's Tree Top Casino....hah aka just whoever was home getting a little silly at his house. The boys got in from SC around 1:00 am. Slept there.

Saturday- Wake up, Get sushi with the crew at one of the worst sushi places i've ever been to. Service sucked but it was a funny experience. Went to Eddy's, went home to change, went back to Eddy's, smoked. Then go to my house waited for the buddy to show up, did that and then went to Matt Fedun's house and later to the diner, which is a story within itself.

Sunday- woke up. bagel barn. Dylan's home. Smokey. Jenny's. Bobby's.

Fordham University. New York, New York. 11:27pm.

So i know that i've stopped stopped writing, and between winter break and second semester there's no way in hell that i could catch up on what i've done . However i will probably fill in the blanks when the time comes. oh and i've totally given up punctuation because i fucking wrote four essays in the last 2 days and i don't just mean four 2 paged essays, i mean four like 5 page essays. fuck my life. but anyways i'm done now and i feel proud, proud, proud! I even went to the writing center today to get my essay edited. i'm such a good student! i'm actually currently getting all A's in my classes, except i dont know what i have in history. After these past 2 days, i've worked so hard that my brain is fried and so i'm coming on thursday afternoon. Actually i was planning on coming on thursday because steph, christina, and eric were suppose to come on wednesday to rage, and then i was going to come home with all of them the next day. So i'm definitly going out tomorrow night! oh yes yes yes. and then maybe thursday they'll come and we'll go out and then i'll go home friday. i realized that i've left you with alot of whiny pages about how much i love home, and i do, still but New York has become more apart of me this semester then it ever has before, plus i finally have a settled down group of friends here that i can trust and depend on like i do at home.  An account of our weekend...

friday- Alex's friend Sarah comes up to visit us from his hometown and brings this substance that i'm just going to replace with green oink. So i get back from classes at like 4 and decided that i'm just going to shower and relax before the night ahead of me because i knew it was going to be a shit show, except i would replace the word shit with a very, very beautiful word. So since we made plans to take the green oink and go the night show at the planetarium. At 7:30 we took them and were on our way to The Museum of Natural History. The show was actually quiet amazing, it was like all this computer graphics set to Moby, Radiohead and Coldplay plus a few DJ's i couldn't name. It was the coolest thing ever i felt as though i was in Disney all over again. Afterward we waited for the bus for like 30 min, while of course chain smoking secrets because they've never tasted so good. When we finally got back to school, we went to the room to bundle up in our furs and get sun glasses and headed to Columbus Circle to sit at the foot of Columbus while i snapped every inch of the night on Tara's Nikon camera. You could say i went alittle overboard. We then went on an adventure through the art gallery, then floating on the escalators and finally settled on smoking in the plaza. I listened to Details In the Fabric- Jason Mraz and Motorcycle Drive By-Third Eye Blind which completely became the song of the night for me, "I've never been so alone, alone, and i, and i've never been so ALIVE". (sidenote: i wasn't alone i was with Vicki, Alex and Dezzy...and Sarah of course). When we were done smoking and listening to music we realized we were locked in the plaza with no way out because it was closed. Luckily the elevator was working and we went down and then to the White Box Theatre, which i've never been to but turned out to pretty cool. It's basically a small studio in the basement of the school where anyone can perform anything, and they dress up for their parts and drink bottles of wine out of paper bags. So being as enchanted as we were to everything and anything we did, we sat through all of the performances. I can't believe our night is so far from being over. So we got back to the room, and smoked some more, as well as pick our different songs on the ipods and looked up music videos on YouTube. Around like 2, Gabby showed up drunk, like beyond drunk and under the green oink it didn't bother me at all, i just kept having to keep her voice down. It was nice not having to get frustrated and pissed for once. Freeing. i sorta wish i could be that rational and happy all the time. After wayy to many talks about how beautiful the ordinary was, Victoria and I build a tent with christmas lights and sheets, and blew up the air mattresses and covered them in furs. I didn't even sleep in the tent but i was so into the process of creating the tent. Even though my body was exhausted and it was 5 am, my mind was racing and repeating things to me over and over that i couldn't even comprehend...i never really went to sleep so...

Saturday- finally fell asleep at like 7:00, slept till 4:00 and only got up to shower, then watched Friends, then finally when Victoria told me they were going to Dylan's Candy Bar on 3rd Ave and 59th St. If it wasn't for the fact it was 68 degrees out and i felt like too much of a piece of shit i wouldn't have gone but i did and got yummy chocolate and peach rings. Mom and Dad were coming to meet up with me in the City and after the night i had i sincerely needed a touch of home. We down to the West Village and parked across a puppy store which of course i needed to go into. I wanted to take them all home, but my favorite was this little Yorkie that had the darkest hair and the cutest face. Mama texted me telling me i could get a puppy once i have my own place. We decided to eat some Tapas and then got coffee at this place where the coffee beans shoots up from their canisters against one wall of the store and went through tubes in the ceiling into the coffee maker. only in new york. When i got back we just decided to smoke jays in the plaza and watch sex and the city. it was all i could ask for.

Sunday- after the breakfast club meet at the dinner, which was more like an lunch club because it was 2pm. but we got breakfast and then i literally started the 2 day hibernation on my ass. I wrote my spanish essay, sent it to mom to get corrected. Wrote half of my english essay, went to bed at 4am.

Monday-woke up for history, got back and wrote the other half of my English essay. Then i wrote my first history essay.

Tues- Woke up for music history. Was way to anxious to finish my work. Listened to a lecture about Mozart. The music is nice and really pretty but i had no patience for it. Then i came back to the dorm, only to realize i had an assignment for Faith and Critical Reasoning which was my 1pm class. Finally, I went to F/C and Spanish where i turned in my essay. Then i came back smoked a bowl because i was wayyy to stressed out. After eating lunch and watching one episode of What I Like About You because i needed to clear my brain I got right back to work. I began my second history essay. Made an appoint to go to the reading center ....and now i'm right back where i started from.....haha it's like one of those flash backs in a movie!

Fordham University. New York, NY. 5:18 pm.

Woah Woah WoooWow. I have not written since NOVEMBER! We'll from now on i've decided that i am going to start writing in my blog again because after going back and reading it actually is really cool to see where i am now. However, for right now i am going to do my least favorite kind of writing......boring essays about Jekyll and Hyde and such pooooo. Till later....

 Fordham University. New york, New York. November 11th 2008. 11:48 pm.

Oh wow it's been forever since i last wrote in this but i just want to quickly write down what i've been up to lately and i'll follow it up with more detail in a later post. I just dont want to forget!!

Friday- Halloween! Went to Sara's house on 93rd st, got ready, ate pizza, went back to Fordham, went down to the village, met up with Sara's friends, went to a loft party in Brooklyn. Met Blake Lively's mom and her dog Penny on the subway ride home, went to a party at school.

Saturday- Sleep all day, Get dolled up go to a wine bar with Victoria and an attempt to a mascarade ball at the Times Hotel, fail, Smoke in Kyle's room

Sunday- Chill

Monday- Max Brenner's, Union Sq, white trash party

Tuesday- No school, sleep all day, WORST hangover! Go downtown Automatic Loveletter, Cute is What we Aim for, Second Hand Serenade Concert, Amore's Pizza, Obama wins the Election!!!! Riot in Union Sq! Bar, got bought shots, listened to his speech, went home.

Wed- David Letterman Show with Alex and Victoria

Friday- Ugly Sweater Party at an apartment on 52nd

Saturday- Hookah Bar, The village, Vicki got her nose pierced, smoke smoke smoke

Sunday- sleep in, Soho, Smoke smoke smoke, cake

YAY FOR NEW YORK CITY!!!!