So today's Jakey's birthday and one month till my birthday! my nineteenth birthday ahh scary!! my last year as a teenager. Although i am highly looking forward to my 20's. I feel like i've soaked up my teenage years for all that they were worth. I seriously had one of the best childhoods/ teenage years ever. I lived in an amazing town, had amazing friends, amazing relationships, parties, vacations around the world, summers in portugal, a car, friend vacations, prom, graduation..... It was just honestly amazing. Movie worth!
Today my day started off a little off, i mean i'm not a morning person but i just was not in a good mood. i should have known this day would be off when i forgot my keys in my room this morning, and then proceeded to get off on the wrong floor for english. I have to remember it's the fourth floor not the fifth floor! All my roommates were gone from my room after i got out of class and showered and got ready and the whole bit, so i really had nothing to do. I am kinda frustrated that i don't really know anyone very very well at fordham yet except for my roommates. Everyone stays so separated, i see new people who go to this school everyday! So i sat and uploaded every Devil Wears Prada lyric because i'm seeing them on oct 26th with Gabs, my sister, and Justin at Terminal 5. I am soooo excited, it's gonna be a sicknasty show! It's TDWP, Underoath, and it turns out the third band is ....SAOSIN! so amped. That was a good part of my day. Then i showered and hung out in the room, got food, actually got to speak to christina on the phone for the first time since she left for school for like an hr. I spent a lot of the day, by myself which was lonely and sad. I realized that the reason i feel so lonely is that i'm so use to be constantly surrounded by like 20 people, because our friends role so deep, and here i'm such a loner. We were such a tightknit group at home and had such a broad amount of people we could hang out with . : (. And then victoria came back and we actually got to smoke for the first time in like a week! event though i smoked at home (haha). It was a much needed stress reliever and i actually ate to the point of fullness. That's a first in awhile. I hate hate hate the food here, but i gotta keep working out because i want to have a sicknasty sixpack. All in good time my dear.
I realized that i may have come off toward my LOL. I'm not one to usually throw myself at a person, i'm usually the one being chased, but i was so desperate haha. I wanted college to be filled with male possibilities, and just meeting new people, but there are so few, that i did something totally out of my morals in order to impress a guy and it ended up backfiring in my face. I mean i was just trying to take charge of my life, and take a risk, and i guess that it came off the wrong way. And i guess i could see how i could have been like one of the those annoying guys who text me and i don't want to talk to. But there are very few of those, and even if they do text me i'm never one to reject someone i give them a chance as a person. Which i think is only fair. A lot of people just blow others off based on their first impression and i really don't think that this is fair. For instance i could totally think of my LOL as a pussyfaggotbitch, who has absolutely no girls skills, and doesn't see a great thing when it's right in front of their eyes. I mean even Eddy said that if he could he'd marry me right now and he'd be happy. haha. I miss my babies at home, they love me for who i am, and we have so much fun together, and they are sooo hot! mwah xoxox.
Yesterday was fun though! we went to go see Nick And Norah's Infinite Playlist. It was sooo cute, although some parts were strange. I'm sure you have to read the book to actually understand the movie. It was so funny because we went to see the flick at Union Sq and when we walked out of the theatre we ended up walking right up the street that one of the scenes of the movie was filmed. So weird! We then found Strand Books, which is this used book store in NYC that is like world known. And i got a tote from there that was like 8 bucks. I love it. My style is really evolving since being here, because i just have so many inspirations! We ate pizza at California Pizza, and sat in Union Sq. Tara and i were asked to be interviewed by this place called www.dailybedpost.com. They asked us questions about sex from "Have you ever cheated or been cheated on?" to "the pros and cons of casual sex" and " the story of how we lost our virginity" hahah oh man! It was a really fun night. I realize that the only way to meet people and have awesome occurences is too constantly go out! To hell with this campus and their selection of men! This weekend we are thinking of going to a Silent Rave in Union Sq on friday, and maybe go out around there since there is such a large young group. Saturday Tara said she's going to take me to this art gallery in Brooklyn and then Pavich is having a comedy club that i'm going to go with Victoria and My sister. And then Sunday i'm hoping we can pull one of our options out of the Magical Bag! Me and Victoria made a goal for ourselves, we have to hook up or get the number of one hot guy! And i got to do it! The more i network the more ppl i will find!!!! I'm excited for the possibilities. I really gotta stop surrounding my happiness around men, I've never been like this!! Boy crazy without boys! could there be a worst situation?
-Stephanie-
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